midnight snack

May 25, 2011

I should be tired.  I only slept about 5 hours last night and those were broken hours intermittently disrupted by my 11 month old.  Here I sit at midnight, wide awake in the darkness, my mind spinning, revving, ready to go.

Is this the true definition of motherhood?

I spend my days caring for others completely with nary a moment to myself.  At the end of the day, when the kids are tucked into their beds, the house is clean, the food put away all I want to do is stay awake in the silence and live MY life.

Maybe I am tired but I’m so busy focusing on myself and what I want that I don’t have time to be tired.  We’ll see in the morning when I have to get up and make breakfast, then lunch, then dress two squirmy boys and be out the door for school all by 9:00 AM.  I’m sure I’ll be tired then.

It’s worth it.

I’ve been working on a house since July that is every shade of cream, beige and gray that you can imagine with a bit of redwood, walnut and charcoal brown for contrast.  It will be stunning when complete but I really need a shot of color.

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